Day 53

There is no medicine like hope, no incentive so great, and no tonic so powerful as expectation of something tomorrow. 

— Orisen Swett Marden

As I look for quotes about hope, I’m seeing a lot of reasonable arguments against hope. I may or may not get into these later, but for now, this quote summarizes my thoughts fairly well. Hope is the only thing that stands against despair. 

Day 47

The best way to not feel hopeless is to get up and do something. Don’t wait for good things to happen to you. If you go out and make some good things happen, you will fill the world with hope, you will fill yourself with hope.

— Barack Obama

This is the aspect of hope (also joy, love, faith) that’s the most convicting to me as I battle depression. I can’t remember the last time I tried to actively put something good into the world. Rather, I’ve been impatiently waiting for hope to be given to me. Maybe that’s not how it works. 

Writing at 2AM

So what do I say here? That an old friend and parishioner, in the midst of offering me some positive feedback, told me I should start a blog? And that I gave a joke answer? So I wouldn’t hav to admit the truth?

Because the truth is, I’ve tried to start a blog many times, but I could never figure out the purpose, the voice. And yet tonight…I think I may have figured it out. 
My depression is my voice.